Summer Fun Part 2

I am looking out a window at a very rainy July, which in itself is weird!!! We have had a fun few weeks. We started off having the water park and park visits. Lately it has been going out and sampling a few things inside and a few outside. We have had plans that we would go to the zoo. But as usual the weather makes it hard for us to leave. Kason doesn't do well with heat and well I am going to make sure that when we go it is late evening so Kason can enjoy it too!  We went to the farmers market two weekends ago and enjoyed it. I ended up buying 17 dollars worth of squash, zucchini, corn, cantaloupe , tomatoes, and local honey!  We went home and well promptly ate the wonderful and delicious food made from the local grown veggies and fruit!! We have been blessed with good health thus far and we have been able to enjoy time away from the doctors office. The 4th of July came and was filled with fun. The hubs and his dad both met with us up at the field near the 7-11 and watched several wonderful little shows and then watched the City's fireworks. I got to spend time with my family amongst the busy work schedule and the madness.. It felt great to be able to celebrate the freedom we have. I feel sadly that the freedom we had before is slowly fading with mans selfishness.. The next day we grilled hamburgers and spent time listening to the radio and let the kids run around.. Then the rains came.. and that they did!!! It has been raining non stop for the last few days ..

Well that might have been the most boring post I made.. I know that as soon as school starts there will be more posts... Kalli's first day and plays and stuff!!

until then..

Kason : Looking back at the last 4 years (7.17.09- 7.17.13)

I am sitting here and looking back over baby pictures and the 4 years that I have been blessed with my sweet boy!! I remember the day that I took the test for him and it came positive..  I was scared out of my mind on how I was going to love another child. I was very happy despite a few people in my life telling me I was messing up ( I was 20 at the time) . My hubs ( at the time fiance) and I where going through a rough time during the time so the pregnancy was already going rough because of the emotions...  I fought through weeks of bleeding, being admitted into the hospital and the constant pang of contractions managed to make it to 36 weeks.. Our son was born right before the shift change and all was wonderful... Breastfeeding was hard and I was not able to nurse on one breast.. I was left again alone with a newborn while the hubs went to work out of city..  Alone I went on .. One day his face broke out in a rash and thus began the path we have been on for the past three and a half years. I have been in a constant tizzy of doctors appointments and constant stress load that would make anyone else loose their marbles.. I would wake up to bloody sheet and a screaming baby most nights.. I feel sick to my stomach just thinking of his screams.. After months of begging we finally got specialists.. But again it was creams and steroids and plenty of heartbreak when that didn't work and his face would again turn to a bloody and raw nightmare.. As we neared his first birthday it seemed to get better... then one big flare knocked him back down .. Again his skin inflamed and bleeding.. My prayer however came true when his eczema went away just enough to take his birthday pictures!! We tried to feed him cake.. and as usual he didnt eat much.. Weeks later I am holding him and rocking him.. He starts to cry and then turns blue... seizing on my lap.. I scream out for him to come back as his lips get darker and darker... I finally get him to breath... We rush him to the hospital.. I know i have told this story a million times.. each time I can feel my heart do the same thing it did when he first had the attack... his body was giving up.. my son was dying.. my heart.. my soul was sick for him.. Looking back i should have knew.. I should have taken him to a different doctor.. Maybe he would not have suffered soo much..  We get past this phase and move into a year of bliss.. Nothing and I mean nothing happens... Infections slowed down and life was normal.... I got my wish on his second birthday.. just for one day of perfect skin... I was able to hug him without him crying and kiss his sweet cheeks without the fear of infection or making him hurt...  We went through that year like nothing had happened.. UNTIL..... His third birthday brought more breakouts and Hives , confused we entered through another phase of complete Hell... It wasn't until this year ( 2013) that what was happening and what had been happening came to light... We finally got him tested for food allergies... and have a new battle since he was diagnosed.. Lots of happy moments clouded by sadness.. hard work and sleepless nights...


Although not everything was Bad... there is moments ( and pictures ) of good times and moments of bliss... Moments that can make the darkest ones seem like nothing.. The videos of him laughing even though his face must have hurt badly... The feeling of being alone and another mother with a child with the same condition writes you and tells you how strong you are and how strong he is and that this too shall pass..  The moments that you watch him blow out his candles , more each year and know that you are going to do everything to protect them.. I know one day ill be looking at a man instead of a little boy... Ill hold a hand bigger than my own....

Most times I wish I would have wrote a letter on the day of their birthdays and present them to them when they become parents.. But ill start now..



My dearest Kason,

My sweet boy know that I love you so very much.. As I am sitting here I think of how precious you are to me.. You know how strong you are? I am amazed by you little boy.. I am amazed by the big boy you are becoming.. I am so blessed to be your mommy!! God put you right where you belong.. Your father and I are so thankful for every precious moment we have had with you.. As you turn 4 I am going to cry a little.. Because you are not going to be little anymore.. You have left the baby stage and moved into boyhood.  You will be able to go to school next year.. and well that is really scary because it seems like not so long ago they handed me a bread loaf sized bundle with a tiny baby in it.. Now my wish for you is that you will grow big and strong.. That you love with no price and that you Know that not just me and daddy love you , but your sister and little brother as well as the Great I Am.. your heavenly Father above!!! He loves you more than you know!!! I pray that you will know his love in the darkest hours... Keep your head up and know that I am always a step behind you... Now while you nap ill watch more videos of you and feel even more blessed becuase when you wake up I know ill have a dozen more to add soon!!!

Love you with all of my heart
Mommy

( Cure For Kason Blog Special) Rants about shopping for safe food

Ask me anything about weather and ill be able to tell you.. if you have been following my blog or my pages you will know that I do storm spotting.. I could tell you anything about changing a cars oil, I was raised by the best car care guy on this earth. But ask me to tell you how to shop for food allergies starts me to a nervous fit...

Since April we have been through the ups and downs of getting Kason used to his new diet.. Where there would be PB sandwiches in the afternoon , there is now special made chicken and noodles or a quick baked potato..  We have been through the biggest change of lifestyle since my hubs left the military..  Changing your diet however has made most of the people ( mostly myself) a little more grumpy and a little less thrilled with food.. What used to be filled with cream of crap ( cream of mushroom ETC) is now filled with white rice and herbs and dairy free butter. Shopping for the newly diagnosed is like a marathon.. You get so far into a label thinking YES we can eat that and the the epic letdown when it says soy letchin or other wonderful dairy, soy or peanut products!! I have had to make my shopping trips easier by leaving the kids with the hubs so that I can get something that will not cause Kason any harm..  What used to take me AN hour now makes me think I need to just move in.. My last visit caused me to come home and raise my hands up in retreat..

I started by cutting the processed stuff out of our diet , that would include my favorite frozen pizza fix.. I have start cooking more fresh foods.. Instead of more junk there is fruit and veggies.. Instead of tons of trips to the store it now is visits to the farmers market for fresh meat and fresh veggies.. I am not worried about what I am feeding him , its all labeled clearly.  I choose not to be worried anymore. I am giving my child the best thing .. We are super exited about the non GMO foods and meats ( yes you can have GMO meat because they eat GMO grains)

Lists have become my best friend, there is so many additives that are on the no no lists for Kason, The companies have to label for the main 8 allergens.. but guess what they can hide milk with whey and soy in lecthin . I am sickened that these companies don't want to label.. what are they afraid of? Loosing business? I am concerned about what is to come in the future.. Will my son ever be safe?